Andrea is the amazing woman
from Peru who was inactive for a lot of years, but then came back to
church about 6 months ago after she had a dream about the elders who
taught and baptized her in South America. It was her 12 year old son
Enzo who was baptized my second week in Denmark. I love Andrea! Her
testimony was so strong and she loved the church so much. We even
brought her to visit less actives with us because she had such a
powerful testimony.
So the phone call we got from Andrea was unfathomable... She said
she's leaving the church. She can't be a member anymore. Her
almost-x-husband is moving back in and she is leaving the church for
him. My heart is sooo broken. Its hard to accept the fact that everybody
has their agency. And its hard to know what to do after you've already
done all that you can.
If that wasn't already heart breaking enough....
Sister
Grant and I went to visit Susanne this week. Susanne the adorable woman
who gave Sister Peterson and I sparkly shoes. Susanne who came to know
the church was true when the Spirit filled her from the tips of her toes
to the hairs on her head. Susanne who quit smoking after receiving a
powerful priesthood blessing. Susanne who was just baptized in July.
When we first started talking with Susanne I tried to convince
myself that I'd misunderstood her Danish. But no... I understood her
right. Susanne wants out. She wants to leave the church. We tried to
talk it through with her- she's been struggling with smoking again and
she feels like she can't pay her tithing, and she has a lot of problems
with her family. We assured her that she is loved and welcome at church
no matter what. That she doesn't need to be perfect, because the gospel
is for imperfect people. But nothing we said seemed to make any
difference... She says she can't be a member of the church.
I felt destroyed inside. I still do...
It hurts. Really bad. Its like watching somebody turn down the parachute you offer them before they jump out of a plane.
When
we left Susanne's house my heart was so depressed and I was so
sad. Sister Grant and I walked along the harbor and talked about all the
good things... Like the beautiful trees with colorful patterns of
leaves decorating them. Then we walked past a bunch of construction work
where a house was being built. And it reminded me of my dad. And how
much I love my awesome dad. I'm sure that my dad would be sad if he
knew that I was sad... So I tried to be happy despite all the depressing
events.
And I thought about Jesus Christ. It must have been
soooo hard for Him when people wouldn't accept Him. It must be so hard
for Him to see so many people walk away.
There's
a story about a seminary class. The teacher picked one of the students
to come up to the front of the room. Then he pulled out a big box of
crispy creme donuts for the class. He went around the class one by one
and offered each student a donut. But before they could take their donut, the boy up front had to do 20 pushups. 20 pushups for each person
that wanted to eat a donut. Then the seminary teacher offered a donut to
one of the girls, and she said no, I don't want a donut. The teacher
said ok that's fine... but then told the boy he had to do 20 pushups
anyway. And so it went... whether the students ate the donut or said no,
the boy did 20 pushups for them all. (I hope he was a football player
or something!) The object was to teach the class about the Atonement.
Whether we accept Jesus Christ or not, He suffered
for us. He suffered and bled and paid the price for our sins and our
weaknesses. He suffered beyond comprehension. And because He suffered,
we don't have to! Yet there are some people who don't accept that.
It breaks my heart about Andrea and Susanne, and about all the others. I wish there was more that I could do...
The
best thing I can think of is to take full advantage of Christ's
atonement in my own life. I won't suffer, because He already suffered
for me. And now He's here to comfort me through my sorrows and
strengthen me through my trials. I wish everybody would accept his love.
But if they won't, I still will.
I think Heavenly Father knew I was having a hard time. So He blessed me with a wonderful day to cheer me up.
The
next day Sister Grant and I along with the 3 elders who serve here in
Slagelse with us were on our way to Anny and Leo's (cute grandma and
grandpa in our ward) for dinner. When the 5 of us missionaries got off
the bus there was a man who came up and started talking to us. He was
heading the same direction as we were so we all walked and talked with
him a little ways. As we stood out on the sidewalk talking with this
stranger, Anny came outside. "Hi, my name is Anny," she said and shook
the strangers hand. "We are eating fish tonight, would you like to join
us for dinner?" After a short awkward pause, he said why not! And followed us into their home. Anny and Leo were so cute with our new
friend- so eager to share their testimonies and beliefs. Our new friend
told us that when he saw the 5 of us on the bus we looked like very nice
people, and that he was curious why the young men all had ties and why
we were all dressed so nice. He said he didn't get any "bad vibes" from
us, and that when we got off at the same stop as him he took it as a
sign that he was supposed to talk to us. Sister Grant and I had to run
off early to catch the bus and make it to our next appointment, but the
Elders and Anny and Leo had a great discussion with him and gave him a
book of Mormon and a hymn book. He wants to join our ward choir! How
awesome.
Our next appointment was totally incredible. We
finally got to meet with Bettina again! This time she made cupcakes. And
they were a lot better than the brownies we had tried to make for her
last week..... hahaa. She wanted us to help her practice what to say so
she can bear her testimony on fast Sunday.
Holde op! She is so great. Then we taught her the Restoration lesson.
The Spirit was so strong and Bettina absolutely loved everything we had
to say. I will never forget the look in her eyes when my cute
little greenie said "Bettina, will you follow the example of Jesus
Christ and be baptized?"
SHE SAID YES!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh. I wanted to cry. I was so happy.
I'm so thankful for my little black name tag and the amazing opportunity its given me. Being a missionary is so amazing.
Did I tell you about how I might have a gluten allergy? Dumbest
allergy ever invented. I love eating gluten. But Tina is taking it sooo
serious... She always gives me gluten free stuff and makes me eat it
haha. I'd rather just eat things that naturally don't have gluten in
them instead of some weird excuse for bread. It was SO funny last time
we ate with Tina and Francesco. Francesco had baked his delicious
homemade Italian bread which is probably the best thing on the planet
earth. And of course Tina said I wasn't allowed to eat it. But Francesco
was on my side! He snuck me bread under the table :) And distracted
Tina so I could eat it :) He's the best. Also Francesco said he will
name his kid after me. He said he'll name is little girl "Roger." But
Tina insisted that it will have to be a boy....
Are you ready for the highlight of the week? Maybe the highlight of the month or even the year...
I GOT A GUITARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!
My
awesome friend Rachel had an extra guitar and asked me if I wanted it.
Well its safe to say that my journal has felt a little neglected this
week.... All I ever wanna do in my minimal free time is strum on my 6
string.
One more highlight: I started talking to this guy on
a train, and he asked me if I was Norwegian!!! I'm not good enough for
people to think I'm Danish yet... but Norwegian is pretty close :)
I hope you all have an awesome week.
Remember to think about Christ, and take advantage of the gift He's given you.
Also take advantage of the cans of pumpkin you can buy at the grocery store. They don't have those in Denmark.
JEG ELSKER JER.
xoxo Søster Rogers
With Tina and Sister Peterson at the park
I love Tina!
We made a new friend at the park :)
Grandpa Hans and Grandma Ulla
Saying goodbye to Sister P
chillin with Francesco
Me and Sister Grant